Love On Tap : A Wounded Hearts Second Chance Romance (Love By Design Book 8) by M.C. Cerny

Author:M.C. Cerny [Cerny, M.C.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2021-06-24T18:30:00+00:00

17

Andy

Present

“Why did you come back?” I screamed into the night and wind. Rain hit my face so hard the words drowned coming out. She shouldn’t have been here at the vineyard either. I bought the place, it was mine now and she was technically squatting on my property unless she stepped inside the cottage. Odd how I could own everything around her, but not her, never her, never her heart. History be damned.

“I couldn’t stay away. Everything hurt no matter where I went or how high I tried to get. Nothing took the pain or the guilt away. Not the booze I drank to numb myself. Not the pills I used to forget. Not men I used to get back at what happened to me.”

“And a phone call?” Her answers would never close the wound she left in my heart, gaping and raw. I didn’t even know how to address her living here in the stone shed like a vagrant.

“Andy… I ruined everything. I didn’t deserve you. I didn’t deserve a happy life with anyone.”

“And you didn’t think I could have been a part of that decision?”

“Not then I didn’t.”

“Jesus Christ. I married you.”

“And I sent you divorce papers which I’ve come to find have been hanging on your office wall all these years.”

“I was honoring our commitment. Something you seemed to have trouble doing.”

Her eyes watered and overflowed, “I wasn’t a hooker.”

I couldn’t stop the growl or running my hands through my hair without pulling fistfuls, “Semantics.”

“I was trying to fix things.” She whispered like a broken doll.

The bridge of my nose pounded in a painful headache.

“A little self-care might have saved us the trouble.”

“What was I supposed to do? Cancel plans? Stay in, have a girl’s night? Disconnect for a bit?”

“Well it’s certainly not disappear for a decade to resurface later as a completely different person.” I groused.

“But, Andrew, that’s just it, I haven’t changed at all.” She sounded forlorn and hopeless. It gutted me.

“We’ve all changed.”

Sierra might have been the same terrified little girl who didn’t have enough options but we were adults today and I could offer her plenty if she just sat still long enough to listen to me.

“Are you still doing drugs?” I asked watching her face for the slightest indication she was lying.

“No. I haven’t for a while but that doesn’t mean everyday isn’t a struggle.”

I kneeled down in front of her to clasp her hands in mine.

“Firefly, I’d be worried if you said it was easy and you never thought about it. I know that’s it’s going to be there, but I don’t want this shit to own us.”

“But I’ve hurt so many people.”

“You make it sound like no one in the history of Earth has ever made a mistake before?”

“I didn’t say that.”

“We’re human. We hurt. We bleed. We can also apologize and make better choices.”

“I’m just so afraid that my choices are unforgivable and when you realize this you’re going to push me away and nothing will have changed after all.

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